bestrongandcourageous

you know what our love is like?

it is like this dream we forget upon waking

like a ray of sunshine that we can never look straight into

it is similar to a sweet secret kept in the hidden corners of youth

it is too precious to be said aloud

it is a whisper

a silent phrase that is lost once it is spoken

that is why we have to keep it

layered beneath memories cherished and embraced

that is why it is worth waiting for

that is why it is worth fighting for

because it is all too precious to let go

you are strong and beautiful, worthy to be praised and loved
your family loves you, your friends see hope and kindness in you
your strength gives hope for the people who need it
you may not realize it, but the world shouts thanks for your existence
you are true, noble and kind
more beautiful than any named flower

because you can
laugh, and cry and love

I have been on a journey for the past 5 or 6 months.

A journey to find myself
A journey to find my heart

This journey I took on willingly, not knowing the perils I would face or the things I would lose once
I stepped out into it. There was a job I left behind, a person I love that I hurt, and a ministry that I enveloped myself in for all the selfish reasons.

I could say I was looking for God.
But He found me first.

He took all the things that kept me comfortable and disrobed me of all the things that kept me secure. He took the things I was proud of, the people I was with and the activities I did to make myself secure, and most of all, He took away the person I loved.

He did this, so I could have Him back.

And only when I was naked and weeping in the darkest corners of the night did I need Him like I always should have needed Him.

Like air, like water and sunlight.

Now I am on my way back, clothed in grace and His righteousness.
My way back is also a journey, to take back the things I lost, and find them again, but this time,
with a right heart.